Thought, Knot & Not

A thought is only a thought with no act to the thought
But when a thought becomes an act, the act has its own thought to influence the thought and thus another act, another thought
For the act involves the others act of the others thought

With two acts creating two thoughts influencing the thought, creates a new act of the thought which I never thought I would act
May be such is the nature of the thought

I wonder if there is such a thought as a primordial thought, a fundamental thought
For the thought of the act and the thought from the act is the very act itself creating another thought, another act

I wonder where this thought comes from
Only to realize that the thought of the thought is another thought transforming the thought

With no thought to thought and the very thought to thought
I make up the thought
I wake up the thought
I rake up the thought
And I speak of the thought
For the thought of I and I of the thought to the thought has no thought to think of the thought

So I look not for the face
For the face is a trace of the mask of the eye
The eye that has dyed itself to another eye, another I, another thought

I Look not for the space of the thought nor the pace of the thought
For both the space and the pace is another thought hiding behind the thought

I Look not for the quality of the thought
For the quality has no equality and is only of a locality that makes up its own actuality but not the reality

Just like, seasons may come, seasons may go
reasons may come, reasons may go
For the season has no reason for treason to another season

Same way, thoughts may come, thoughts may go
For the thought that is sought, is the one that becomes a KNOT and a NOT



Human & Numen

A human needs no high-rises nor 10 bed townhomes
A human body needs a shelter within nature, within the nature of nature

A human needs no company of a companion
A human needs to accompany the mind of the human

A human needs no security of tomorrow
A human needs to scrutinize the human mind of today

A human needs no fort of comfort
A human needs to get to know the confinement of the comfortable mind

A human needs no needs of the wants to haunt
A human needs to daunt the wants of the needs

A human needs no free will nor the free will of choice
A human needs freedom, from free will and free will of choice
Freedom, from my own known voice

Freedom is not a dome that it is confined to but maybe is the home that has no dome
Freedom is not in the blame of the other nor in the acceptance of the other, but in neither

Freedom is not in the experience of the yesterday nor the repetition of the memory of the yesterday but maybe in the birth of the awareness of today

Freedom is not in the labels, not on the tables of the labels, nor in the fables of the labels
But maybe, in the unlabeled, in the un-tabled, within the un-fabled

Freedom is not in the confinements and conditions of hate or love, chaos or peace, for both are simply refined confinements, refined conditions
However refined the confinement, The refined, is only as fine as its confinement
But maybe in that which is neither confined/refined nor conditioned

Thus, a mind that is unexplored beyond its confinements, beyond its own known refinements,
is a mind that is unexamined

For a human that is free is like a numen and a lumen that know of no numen or lumen


Can I live in the AWARENESS of yesterday and in the WONDER of today?
I wonder what kind of experience will that be?

I ask this question NOT to compare it with quotes like
“Stop and smell the roses” or “Live in the present moment” and then conclude that it means this or that.

But actually find out for myself
what is living in “awareness of yesterday/past experience” and
what is living in the “memory of the yesterday/past” experience really mean.
Is there a difference between Awareness and Memory?

Does “Awareness” mean that so and so exist and I know it does?
For example – I am aware that I have a body called human body.

Does “memory” mean that I had an experience and I know the “result of the experience”, so I “choose” to have the same experience again or not, but most certainly I know what the end result is, isn’t it?

Most times, I find myself living in the memories of my past experiences or in the memories of others experiences (family/friends/society etc etc) creating traditions, conditions etc
But what if I change my mind consciously to live in the “AWARENESS” of the past experiences?

Now that I am living in the awareness of yesterday and don’t know if the present experience will be a bad or good experience.
Can I simply wonder what the experience will be, simply experiencing the experience but yet aware?

What kind of life/experience will my life/experience be when the “AWARNESS MEETS WONDER” every second, every single thought of mine?

So, can I live in the “AWARENESS of yesterday and in the WONDER of Today”?